all i ever seem to do is moan...

All i ever seem to do is moan. Moan about everything.

But I have decided. I need a hobby; something to occupy my thoughts and time so I cannot moan so much.
I just don't know what it should be. I want to go running/jogging but the roads around here are too dangerous. I want to learn to sing but I have no money to pay a teacher. I want to teach myself guitar but I'll get frustrated too quickly. I want to write more but I seem to have forgotten how.

Do I want a hobby to distract myself from these thoughts about my relationship? Am I worrying, thinking, overreacting too much? Possibly.

I seem to have lost who I am...and what's left is boring.

Somebody find my soul?

is there a light at the end of the tunnel?

so is that a light at the end of the tunnel?

or will it just be a reflection? a figment of my imagination? or simply a dream?


After refusing to listen to my mum the first time, today i listened then researched.
i discovered there is a high chance all of my issues and problems can be attributed to the contraceptive pill I'm on - Microgynon 30.

almost every sympton/side effect people have mentioned matches me. and just like me some of them have been suffering for years before they realised.

so detox time...will it work? is it possible i might just be ok?